Firstly, I don’t like it.

I know he wants to help me and find the deeper cause of this, but it’s not working. Now I don’t know how to tell him that I don’t want to talk about it anymore and that I’ll handle my problem on my own.

I don’t like it. It's a punishment for my mistakes. I don't know what to do now. He was the only one I talked to about it and who really understood me, but now I'm scared and can't talk to anyone about it.

Last night I broke my month streak of not cutting myself but that's not a problem. I cut my left thigh so much I can't even walk atp, it's just opening itself all the time (I cut in either vertical lines or ). What can I do to reduce the pain and my wounds from opening themselves besides just waiting for it to heal? Ik I'm stupid for not cutting like most people do but cutting in the traditional way is just not giving me enough pain and satisfaction.

I’ve found some “tools” as you could call them, not used but they do have a bit of what feels like grease on them, if I wipe them down properly with a few antiseptic wipes, will they be okay to use? I’m desperate

So, I made a post on r/teenagers asking if I was ugly ( just for curiosity, because I wanna see what people my age think and because I genuinely think that I am) and I never thought it would get as much attention as it got. Now I’m feeling pretty bad cause there’s a lot of people saying I really am, there’s also others that are saying that I am compliment and attention seeking and that is just not true. I knew I was ugly but some people are really fcking rude, for example a commment said: “You look like what comes out of the drier when I'm done washing my uncles cum rags. You look like what happenes when an Atari tries having 4k graphics. Youre what ryker Webb saw when he went missing. Youre the kinda girl to say “noo I look horrible right now” when someone asks to take a group photo.” Oh, and that is just one of them. What I hate about myself too is that there’s also a lot of positive comments and I am just not able to believe the people that are saying I’m pretty and I can only concentrate in the bad ones.

These past few days, i realized that i am easily overwhelmed by my emotions. Like, i know it’s just a little inconvenience, or a small misunderstanding, but i am immediately overwhelmed by negative emotions.

There are these thoughts in my head that i will never be good enough, i am not kind enough. I wish I was aborted so that i do not have to suffer in this world that i do not feel that I am belong.

I tend to scratch my wrist, even my body with my nails just to vent my emotions and also my way to punish my self for being so stupid, not good enough and too sensitive for a specific matter.

I do not intend to die. Not yet. I do not want my mother to cry. I do not want others to blame her. I know i should accomplish more for us to be financially stable.

But with the thoughts in my head, with these overwhelming feelings, sometimes i cannot think properly while scratching myself, it feels like it’s so blurred, and foggy. As time passes by (it’s more than a year), i thought it will end, but I was just craving for something more sharp because i do not want to feel my pain emotionally. I am scared that I’m going to ki** myself without realizing it.

With these kind of situation, no one knows about it. They will never understand, and I do not want to be a burden to them. This is just me wanting to vent, and hopefully, someone can give advice before anything goes south.

okay so ive been clean for a while but i have verrry noticeable scars on my thigh. i live in a tropical country that gets rlly hot in the summer n i have a family that likes to go to the beach alot and i rlly wanna know what are some ways i can hide these scars on my thighs(preferably ways that arent affected by water) or ways to make them fade enough that they aren't noticeable . im dark skinned if that is to any value to you all in finding a solution

I feel kinda weird about this, but I really like it when celebrities I look up to have struggled with self-harm. Like, I don't imagine them doing it or feel good about them suffering, but knowing that they have struggled with the same things me gives me comfort. I'm obsessed with one celebrity in particular right now. I read fanfiction about them dealing with this issue. I zoom into pictures of their scars being visible, sometimes screenshotting them. It feels very dirty, somehow, but... I don't know. I just wanted to ask if anyone else feels like this or has similar experiences.

But I’m on the edge of relapsing

i hit deep styros and i dont have any bandaids or gauze what do i do?????

For some reason selfharm is the only thing I want to do when I feel an intense emotion and I wish it wasn’t

My BF is currently at work and I am so stressed and worried because he has not had a break after 7 hours of working and the stress and worry is so intense I just want to / almost feels like a need to hurt myself. Why is this. Why do I overreact to things like this. This isn’t even a thing to worry intensly about and why is SH always my go to option?

(14F) I did it about an hour ago, and I'm just feeling pathetic, and stupid. The reason why I cut myself sometimes is so that I can care for them - bandage them up nice and see them heal overtime. It's to replace the care I almost never get. I thought I was getting better with healthier coping mechanisms like art, but apparently no.

My dad left me and my mom when I was 8, and ever since I've just felt like nobody really cares. Doesn't feel like my mom cares either. (She's seen my scars but did nothing to help).

I'm so goddamn desperate for love, validation and praise that I dress sexually and just wish for some adult man to spot me. I know it would be taking advantage but I need it. Need an older man to say how proud he is, that I'm valid, that I'm pretty.

I need a fucking hug..

Scar to low on arm

Im a 14 Male. I CvT myself, i wanna stop. But for now i need advice. I did it to low on my arm, i have cooking class where i have to pull up my sleeves and gym class (i wear hoodie to hide scars) but the teacher says its to hot and asks why i would wanna wear that. I need advice how to hide scars. Please help because my parents will send me to an issue therapist if they find out. And just don’t wanna get judged in school

Please tell me I'm not the only one who's on the beach wearing a sun shirt to avoid burning and baggy shorts? The good thing is that no one really cares because after all I'm VERY pale and I burn Easy in the sun.

I have been clean from sh since i was 16 (18 now). Last night I was drunk, alone and in my feels and ended up relapsing. How do I bounce back from this? I have ended therapy years ago so I really don’t have anyone to talk to, a big part of my recovery was support from friends and family but I don’t want to talk to any of them about it. I just feel so guilty because it’s been so long and i don’t want to fall back into it but i have already opened the door.

Hi guys I'm nearly a year of no self harm but I am on school break, and my therapist is closed I am going to cut myself soon, any alternatives, I don't want to lose a year but I can't help it.

I cant and I really need help. I do it because I want to sort of, fuck I don't know, prove to the world and myself I have problems?? I don't know how to fully word it, but it's also relaxing too. Everytime I see the scars fade a little after staying clean for a few days I panic and do it again, something about seeing it go away scares me, makes me think I'm not mental. Like what I go through is just in my head and not real. And it just repeats and repeats. I don't know if it makes sense or not, does anyone understand?? Does anyone have the same sort of situation here? How can I stop?

Today marks 2 years since I started cutting. I thought it was less than that

Hi, I used to cut myself a lot and I stopped around 5 years ago. Today my bf got mad at me over something (that was honestly really my fault tbh) and I sat and stared at nothing and scratched my arm so much until it bled. I basically scratched a thin layer off because it's very sore right now and I cant even wear longsleeves rn because it hurts too much. Is this relapse?

Some backstory: So when I was younger i absolutely loved the feeling of having bandaids on and when I cut I would never buy that wrap stuff (forgot what it’s called) I always just put a ton of band-aids on. I would go to the extent of using a paperclip to give myself welts so I can get a bandaid for a teacher or mom.

Actual Question: Do you think my weird want for bandaids could have led to me self harming? Is that even possible? I mean I still like having bandages on and will just one or two on just because from time to time but this just popped into my mind a it ago and thought I’d ask

(TW: slight description of healing stages not too in detail, don't know if it can trigger someone but just incase)

So I was a regular forearm cutter and I knew that in about 20 days more or less they would be completely healed not yet whiteish scar but nearly there. However, the last time I cut I did it on my thigh and that was already 20 or more days ago and some of the cuts are still looking redish, like they seem to be healed but there aren't any signs of fading. To put it in perspective after 20 days I could go outside with no long sleeves and nobody would notice my forearm unless they were looking at it with dead focus or I put it straight to there face. However, if I did the same with my thigh (although it is high up so you'll practically never going to be showing it but you get my point) someone will notice 100% sure if they where talking to me.

Does the part of your body that you harm affect how quickly the healing goes? Or maybe it's because this were slightly deeper than the forearm ones? Or is it just me overthinking it too much?

Last night i posted about overdosing, i wanted you all to know i am okay and went to the mental hospital

i don’t do very deep cuts but im always dizzy after cutting and the only thing that makes it stop is if i lie down with my legs/feet in the air, is this normal for everyone or just due to me being chronically ill?

thats it kinda. i dont know why things turned out this way. probably gonna cut later and nobody will care cause i dont have anyone who cares to stop me or tell me that they love me or anything. i hate that i hurt myself over silly stuff like this, basically nothing. ive quit trying to find solace in telling my friends, they dont care. all i want is someone to give me a reason to quit cutting and a reason to want to live.

I feel like the more I try to be happy, the more I end up doing things that make me feel worse. It's like, I get stuck in this loop where I start feeling happy, and then I sabotage it. I know it's my fault, and part of me thinks I'm just faking it. But it's not even about faking happiness-it's more like I'm just being myself, even though it's a mess. It's like l've convinced myself that these habits are just a part of who I am. I do things that don't really help me cope; I just do them because it feels like control.

I feel happy or indifferent , and then it all shifts so fast-suddenly I feel anxious or scared, or nothing at all or really angry and then I feel sad, and it's like I'm telling myself I brought this on myself cs maybe it’s really what i wanted , even though I'm not sure why. or sometimes im really too happy, and then I'd play sad music, hurt myself, isolate myself from friends, push them away, just because it’s like a control to me so i can regulate myself maybe it’s because i have this imagine in my head of how i should feel

I know it's all for attention. Even this-writing this down, I wonder what people would think if they saw it. If my mom reads this, if anyone reads this, it's like I'm looking for something. I'm not sure what I even want. I just keep pretending to be happy or pretending to be sad, but none of it feels real. I know I'm not a good person for doing this. It's all just me trying to look like something I'm not. i feel bad sometimes i purposefully drop “hints” and it’s disgusting and i feel horrible and it makes me feel gross and then i just wanna shut down and distance myself again the cycle continues even if i don’t tell anyone it feels like i just want sympathy or pity or something just anything a reaction or a reason

wonder if everyone has these secrets, or if I'm the only one who feels like this. I can't seem to keep things to myself, and I don't know if that makes me weak or if it's just human. I don't trust myself. I'll feel like I'm doing okay one minute and the next everything spirals again. I feel like I could change at any moment and just snap out of it , but then I wonder if I even want to. It's not about pretending to be happy-it's like I just feel something for a moment, and I don't know if it's real or not and then it’s gone like the grounds constantly slipping from under me i don’t even know what emotion im writing with

I feel like a bad person for all of this. Like I'm asking for pity or attention in the worst wav possible i already know what kind of answers i’ll get or what people will say but it feels like programmed like it’s not genuine i just can’t trust anything fully and it’s no one’s fault but mine and i know that i feel like im just doing too much and i hate it it just feels like nothing again

I've been reading some stories for about 20 or so minutes, and I keep seeing people talking about "beans", "cat scratches", "bedrock" ect. What does that mean? I'm so confused.