brothers..

[u/Plastic-Cabinet-4840]

my existence generally bothers me. elaboration, things such as talking to people, the way i have talked to people, the interactions i have with people i call friends. it all bothers me. i could be having the best time ever and the sudden realization that others can perceive me pulls me right out of it. the fact that i live in a house, brush my teeth, doing everyday things makes me feel embarrassed.

i get negative feelings thinking about family the most. just knowing that they’ve seen me grow up from a little kid makes me feel so icky and stupid.

i’m not sure if it stems from all the bad interactions i’ve had, like having a hard time understanding what people mean or say. i’ve learned over the years how people work and communicate and it’s helped me improve interactions. yet, i still have trouble dealing with the aftermath. did i say something stupid? did i sound extremely dumb to anyone? why am i here? did epstein kill himself? blah blah blah

all of this to ask, how do i cope with my existence? how do all of you not get embarrassed or overwhelmed by past experiences? how do you… not give a fuck?

[u/SplendiferousAntics]

Sounds like autism

[u/Plastic-Cabinet-4840 → u/SplendiferousAntics]

i do have speculations lollol thanks for the opinion