I am ruining all my friendships

[u/Creative_Permit_3520]

hi. i’m 17 years old and i suffer from extreme anxiety and bad body image. I don’t know what happened in my childhood/anxiety journey for me to switch personalities but i am a shit person. i pick on my friends, and seeing people laugh and be happy fills me with disgust and anger. my friends and family said i’ve changed, and i can’t help but think i’m a monster

i’m not looking for sympathy bc obviously i did what i did but i don’t want to live like this anymore - filled with pure rage and disgust at the slightest peak of love and happiness. Help.

[u/Mysterious-Chance178]

First of all, you’re 17. That teenage hormones and anxiety, it’s normal to be a bit crazy.

Accept the situation that it’s crap.

But also take actions. Go to therapy. Apologize to people who u hurt.

I mean the fact that ur posting on this subreddit is a good sign, first step is the hardest and that is seeing the problem. And you did it!

[u/Creative_Permit_3520 → u/Mysterious-Chance178]

thank you for the kind words i really appreciate it 🥺🥺

[u/Mysterious-Chance178 → u/Creative_Permit_3520]

And how bad is your anxiety? Try cbt therapy. It’s hard but stick with it.

And learn to get control of your emotions. Find a healthy outlet.

I was being kind of mean to everyone when I was that age too. It’ll get better, ur brain hasn’t fully developed yet until 25, just hold on