r/DecidingToBeBetter • u/Creative_Permit_3520 • 1d ago

Seeking Advice I am ruining all my friendships

hi. i’m 17 years old and i suffer from extreme anxiety and bad body image. I don’t know what happened in my childhood/anxiety journey for me to switch personalities but i am a shit person. i pick on my friends, and seeing people laugh and be happy fills me with disgust and anger. my friends and family said i’ve changed, and i can’t help but think i’m a monster

i’m not looking for sympathy bc obviously i did what i did but i don’t want to live like this anymore - filled with pure rage and disgust at the slightest peak of love and happiness. Help.

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u/Mysterious-Chance178 14h ago

First of all, you’re 17. That teenage hormones and anxiety, it’s normal to be a bit crazy.

Accept the situation that it’s crap.

But also take actions. Go to therapy. Apologize to people who u hurt.

I mean the fact that ur posting on this subreddit is a good sign, first step is the hardest and that is seeing the problem. And you did it!

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u/Creative_Permit_3520 8h ago

thank you for the kind words i really appreciate it 🥺🥺

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u/Mysterious-Chance178 7h ago

And how bad is your anxiety? Try cbt therapy. It’s hard but stick with it.

And learn to get control of your emotions. Find a healthy outlet.

I was being kind of mean to everyone when I was that age too. It’ll get better, ur brain hasn’t fully developed yet until 25, just hold on

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u/dosko1panda 1d ago

If you keep it up you'll be alone eventually. Think about you'll feel then.

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u/Creative_Permit_3520 1d ago

should i go to therapy??

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u/dosko1panda 1d ago

It's worth a try. Whatever you do, don't hide from the problem.

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u/Creative_Permit_3520 23h ago

okay thank you i appreciate the help

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u/ji-julian 12h ago

Sometimes, when we perceive someone as better than us, we feel the need to knock them down a peg to level the playing field.

Therapy for the anxiety and bad body image. Bullying people around you as well as experiencing anger in response to perceived joy indicates a certain kind of control issue, a lot may boil down to how your parents raised you.

Consider journaling/asking yourself hard questions and be honest with yourself.

Why do I pick on my friends? Was I nice to them before? What changed?

Why don’t I like seeing other people happy? Do I want to be happy too, or do I want them to feel the way I do?

Has someone ever treated me the way I treat other people?