How do I stop being so competitive?

[u/Stunning_Ad3240]

Hello, I’m a 17 year old girl who is extremely competitive and I feel like it slowly drains me. I always strive to be the best in everything. I can’t stand someone knowing more about a certain topic or being better than me not only at but also outside school. The bigger problem though is that I’m most competitive when it comes to my closest people. My best friend getting a better grade? Fuck no. My sister getting skinner? Absolutely hell no. I will be the best. The skinniest. The smartest. The most praised. That’s it. I can’t stand it anymore. Anyone trying to do something that I consider as my thing? Fuck you, I will try my best to ruin your chances at getting better at it. I know I’m a bitch, I know it is terrible, I know it should not be happening I just can’t help it. I’m trying to stop being like this so hard but it just seems so hard, nearly impossible. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. Thank you.

[u/The_Love_Doktor]

I was the same way…

Do you know what causes this? Do you know why you have the urge to be better? Identifying that is key…