So we lost our first baby last November due to ectopic pregnancy which took my left tube. We then got pregnant 6 months later and here we are. NIPT and all other blood work normal besides my AFP which came back 2.86 - I was sent to MFM for my anatomy scan at 18 wks and all looks normal besides her being small.

I’ve been having US every 3/4 wks since to monitor her growth. I just had my last one at 31 wks & 3days - he advised she’s still running small and did a NST which seemed to be fine and checked blood flow from placenta to baby and also seemed to be fine but from here on out I’ll need to do US every week to monitor blood flow from placenta to baby bc they are concerned about size. She’s been growing at her pace though.

I’m an absolute wreck, this pregnancy has been so hard due to being high risk from the start, then all is good then to high risk again and I just feel like there’s always something.

Has anyone been through this and baby had been fine? As of now all US came back normal no NTD that they can see but she’s just small.

Just looking to see if someone’s been through this, and all was fine? I’m trying not to stress and freak out but it’s really hard especially after already losing a baby.

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He’s here! My little miracle is finally here and we couldn’t be more in love.

What started as a standard growth scan appointment at 37+1 on Christmas eve morning, turned into an FGR, 2 failed pessary inductions and finally a C-section today, with little man being born at 2pm weighing 6lbs 9oz!! a whole pound heavier than estimated. He’s a little jaundice but we’re keeping an eye on it! Drs and midwives have been AMAZING.

Never have I known a love like this. Everything has lead me here, and I could not be any more grateful if I tried.

There IS hope in pregnancy after loss. Loss is not the end of the line. Thank you to everyone who has ever replied to my posts and comments. Your support has carried me through this pregnancy!

My little Rafael James, you have completed us ❤️

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This daily thread is for all members who are pregnant after a previous pregnancy or infant loss. How are you?

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**Please remember to stop by r/ttcafterloss to give updates on how things are going in the Alumni Check-In Thread and to answer questions in the Ask an Alumni thread! **

This daily thread is for all members who are pregnant after a previous pregnancy or infant loss. How are you?

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A new pregnancy doesn't mean we forget the babies we've lost. This weekly Thursday thread is for all members to talk about their grief. Looking for support? Just need to share some memories? This is the place for you!

This daily thread is for all members who are pregnant after a previous pregnancy or infant loss. How are you?

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She’s 12 weeks and absolutely perfect.

We had an emergency induction and she was in NICU for a while - they took fantastic care of her and I. She’s healthy and here. I can hold her and love on her and see her big gummy grin when I say, “Hi, my sweet little Bug!”

She’s number 9. Our first live little babe. It seems so surreal.

It’s hard to type this, emotions get high and I just cry, which is why it’s taken a while to report the good news.

Thank you for your support. Miracles do happen.

Sending you all so much love. 💜

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Someone in r/ttcafterloss shared an old wives' tale that if you put a baby blanket under the Christmas tree, you'd have a baby by Christmas next year. I did that out of desperation, little did I know my rainbow baby would arrive earlier this month!

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I remember the morning I entered the second trimester with my last pregnancy, I thought of how scared I was to be another day closer to birth and the pain of childbirth. Later that same day, the NIPT result came back as positive for Monosomy X. I blamed myself a lot, maybe it was punishment for not being excited to meet my baby. I prayed and prayed that my baby would make it to term and live a happy life, in exchange I'd go through all the pain childbirth had to offer. But I didn't quite get there, I gave birth to my sleeping baby a month after.

As I approached my due date with this baby, I found myself scared of childbirth pain again. And then I had this irrational fear that if I got an epidural, my baby would somehow be punished because I didn't make enough of a sacrifice. It was a lot of back and forth within myself.

I chose a different hospital than where I gave birth to my sleeping baby. I told the nurses of our loss, and they were all so kind to me. One nurse was walking me through what to expect after birth aka the golden hour, and I started crying uncontrollably. I realized I had been so anxious the whole pregnancy that I didn't allow myself to envision the future beyond the birth of our baby.

After that, the image of a baby, MY baby, doing skin-to-skin on my chest helped me power through each contraction. I didn't have to feel conflicted over an epidural after all, because as soon as I asked for one, things progressed quickly and I had to push before my OB could even make it to the hospital. A couple pushes later, and I heard one nurse announce "twelve thirty-five" - my baby was born!

I thought I would cry tears of joy holding my rainbow baby for the first time. Instead I was crying and throwing a fit because I never got that epidural and the whole thing was so intense I didn't even get a second to process what was going on 😅. But baby boy is perfect, and he's worth every single moment of that roller coaster we had been through.

I still struggle between celebrating my baby boy and mourning his angel sister. I wish there was some alternate universe where I could have them both. But I know we have an angel of our own watching over us, and that's very comforting.

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I'm so thankful to have found a great source of emotional support here in this sub. I can't wait for y'all to welcome your rainbow babies 💛.

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After a devastating MMC in January of this year at 8 weeks, I’m overjoyed to share that I have given birth to a healthy baby girl— born 9 pounds 3 ounces! 🌈

It has been such an emotional and anxiety filled journey… but holding my girl in my arms is the most wonderful, overwhelmingly beautiful feeling. My husband and I are so in love.

I still feel the pain of the loss of my first pregnancy - the shock and confusion and grief. But I’m just so grateful for this little one sleeping on me, passed out from eating a ton of milk.

I wish everyone struggling with loss healing and happiness this season.

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This weekly Monday thread is for members to ask questions of ttcal Alumni (members who are currently pregnant after loss or who have had a pregnancy after loss that resulted in a living child).

It’s been a crazy two weeks but so excited to say that on December 7th, our baby boy came into the world! After my first pregnancy in January ending in a chemical pregnancy, becoming pregnant again resulted in a lot of anxiety. Extra visits to the doctors, stress and tears were all apart of the journey. But every step of the way, we saw a normal and healthy baby which gave us hope.

We had an induction set for Dec 8th which was 11 months exactly from when I miscarried. Talk about drastic difference from beginning to end of the year! But on Dec 6th, my water broke instead sending us to the hospital to get evaluated. I was admitted but my cervix wasn’t dilating which they said was unusual. They tried pitocin and the foley ball which weren’t working. Finally I got the epidural and they were able to successfully insert the foley ball and dilation began.

Faster than anticipated, I was ready for pushing! They frantically called my doctor who rushed in and after a little less than an hour of empowered pushing to the Cowboy Carter album by Beyonce lol our boy made his way into the world at 7:55 weighing 7 lbs 13oz and 19 3/4 inches long!

We were overwhelmed with joy that he was her and healthy! Taking care of a newborn these last two weeks has been hard and a huge change but trying to remember who I was earlier this year and how much I wanted this. So grateful and I’m wishing for everyone here to meet their babies soon! 💙🩵

We created this space to share pregnancy concerns like:

- Beta HCGs that seem low or might not be doubling appropriately

- Concerning ultrasound findings

- Bleeding issues

- Etc

These posts are welcome in our Daily Thread, but this is a specific area to discuss limbo and concerns.

Lets all remember HCG averages, too!
- Under 1,200 mIU/ml: <72 Hours

- 1200-6000 mIU/ml: Between 72 and 96 Hours is average, so <96 is good

- Over 6,000 mIU/ml: >96 Hours is normal, with no known average (so varied)

This weekly Monday thread is for members to share what they've been doing to care for themselves. How are you handling your PAL anxieties? Or just regular life/pregnancy self care. Share here!

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This daily thread is for all members who are pregnant after a previous pregnancy or infant loss. How are you?

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Like you, I have been waiting for this day to arrive and to finally put up this post.

(1) ANXIETY & FEARS

But believe me, the anxiety and fears are still here. From knowing and experiencing the loss ( I still hate the term used 'miscarriage', 'loss' and wonder is there a better words such as 'my baby angel is back in Heaven'), TTC, got pregnant again, leading up to birth. The anxiety before each doctor visit / ultrasound - scanxiety, then finally RELIEF AT THE ULTRASOUND HEARING THE HEARTBEAT, then a day later the anxiety returns. The whole cycle repeats. It is really awful. PAL journey is.

(2) DOES IT GET BETTER? WHEN?,

PAL journey haven't been easy, and it probably took me till like 3rd trimester to really register that Baby is Tummy is really coming 💕 And even then, I truly struggle with letting more people - especially people at work or extended family - to know that I am pregnant. Because to me at that time, I feel that I can truly be certain only when the baby is out. I am just so afraid of the what ifs ...

(3) H O P E

Reading the posts of others' birth stories give me hope and help me to pull through during those tough, down and dark moments.

Now that my baby is out, I hope my story will give you hope and make your day a little better today. 🙏❤️

(4) Where to go from here onwards?

This Community really help me during the tough times, and I really like the daily threads. Would anyone know if there is similar community after birth with loss? My loss don't 'disapear' after giving birth.

(5) 2024, 2025, and beyond

Wishing all blessed Christmas and Happy Holidays. I hope you remember that U'RE NOT ALONE IN THIS JOURNEY. We are all here with you and with one another. May 2025 and beyond be kinder to us all ~ ✨