Finally moved into an actual house after two years of living in a shitty metal box where nothing worked. Been here for a few weeks now, but I only learned today that they're helping cover my rent, which means I can actually swing it. Thank fuck.

[u/RedDesertAvenue]

I'm really going to try and turn it around now somehow. All this poisonous self-indulgent misery, the hard boozing, the smoking every fifteen minutes, it all has to come to a hard close if I'm going to pull myself out of this in any meaningful way. This is such a great opportunity for me, if I piss it away like everything else, what else will I have left? It's a charmed little life that I lead, ngl, no matter how miserable it really is. Shit just falls into my lap, it seems. Problems dissappear like they never even mattered in the first place. That won't be so forever, though. I know that. A day is coming where I'll have nothing at all. I just know it. It's like this knife constantly dangling over me. If I'm not ready, I'll fall apart complete when it finally comes down. It's like I've always known that, but I just keep fucking up anyway, as if to spite myself. It's a disease, really. I just don't know what the treatment is.

[u/vincenator02]

Having a roof over one’s head does usually make it easier not to kill oneself

[u/RedDesertAvenue → u/vincenator02]

That is most definitely true.

[u/IsawitinCroc]

Good for you doomer and enjoy your Christmas eve.

[u/RedDesertAvenue → u/IsawitinCroc]

You too :)

[u/yeggha9]

Hell yeah dude

[u/SymmetryEnigma]

Hell yeaaa moment fr fr. Merry xmas

[u/RedDesertAvenue → u/SymmetryEnigma]

Thanks, man. And yeah great timing. This is probably the best I've ever been doing tbh

[u/SymmetryEnigma → u/RedDesertAvenue]

Proud of u blud.more good things to come .🙏🏻

[u/disingenuos]

you convince yourself you’re the problem. and that is the problem in itself. deny all you want. you’re the fix to your own problems. and it starts with change. this is a huge step and the best thing you can do to take a new direction in your life. but it’s extremely easy to fuck it up. don’t fuck it up dude. you commit and stay on this path to positivity. i’m not about to say “hell yeah! frrr bro!!” that shit means nothing. be a man and continue what you started. i believe in you. from one stranger to the next, you can do this.