Vet is coming in the morning... 🥲

[u/Jetsetter_Princess]

My boy was unwell recently and had antibiotics. He's had tummy issues before which recurred with the meds. He was doing OK, not eating me out of house and home like normal but taking food. Then on Monday, he went off his food completely.

Appetite stimulants didn't work like usual so I've been syringe feeding him since Tuesday night. But today he really started kicking off about it and I didn't want to force him if he didn't want it.

On one hand I wanted him to rally; on the other he could come good only for this to recur again, except then I wouldn't be off work like I am now and able to care for/be with him.

My sister came over just now and said he seems checked out mentally. Even since yesterday he's lost a bit of his sass and spark.

I just got off the phone with the mobile vet; he's coming in the morning. I know logically it's the right thing to do but I'm trying to not fixate and just cry all night so I don't stress him out.

I wish I didn't know the exact time the vet was coming, but I also don't want to drag it out.

I don't know if I'm asking for advice or just venting, I just hope he can go peacefully and I'm not doing it too soon. He's over 18, a rescue, and he almost died two years ago (suspected a cancer) but he pulled through so yes we got bonus time. But it still hurts

His name is Roger 💗 and he is the bestest old boi 😭

[u/Jetsetter_Princess]

Thanks everyone for all your comments and support. It really does help.

We didn't sleep a lot last night, more dozed in between Roger's trips to take a lap of the house. He definitely was starting to decline; he kept going to his water bowl but forgetting why. Then back onto the bed. So I put on our usual re-run TV shows and we cuddled and snoozed.

At one point he came back on the bed (he has kitty steps to get up) and walked right up to me and smashed his face against mine, rubbing his nose all over me and purring for about five minutes. I got all the kitty snot 😅

This morning I got up and offered him some of his favourite foods in case he felt like eating, but he didn't, so we cuddled some more. Then we went outside so he could walk on the grass. He used to go for walks in his harness and lead, but because of his paw issue we haven't been able to do that for a few months. He enjoyed the sun and smelling all the smells and seeing the birds.

A nice man stopped to say hello and he asked about Roger's age etc, he must have seen my face then he came over and said he'd had to let his kitty go a few weeks back and that Roger was loved and would know I'd do my best.

I was crying then and the man said he doesn't normally take his walk this way but for some reason he did today and now he knows it was to pat Roger and tell him he was a good boy 🥲

Then we went inside for more cuddles and the vet came.

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