Vet is coming in the morning... 🥲

[u/Jetsetter_Princess]

My boy was unwell recently and had antibiotics. He's had tummy issues before which recurred with the meds. He was doing OK, not eating me out of house and home like normal but taking food. Then on Monday, he went off his food completely.

Appetite stimulants didn't work like usual so I've been syringe feeding him since Tuesday night. But today he really started kicking off about it and I didn't want to force him if he didn't want it.

On one hand I wanted him to rally; on the other he could come good only for this to recur again, except then I wouldn't be off work like I am now and able to care for/be with him.

My sister came over just now and said he seems checked out mentally. Even since yesterday he's lost a bit of his sass and spark.

I just got off the phone with the mobile vet; he's coming in the morning. I know logically it's the right thing to do but I'm trying to not fixate and just cry all night so I don't stress him out.

I wish I didn't know the exact time the vet was coming, but I also don't want to drag it out.

I don't know if I'm asking for advice or just venting, I just hope he can go peacefully and I'm not doing it too soon. He's over 18, a rescue, and he almost died two years ago (suspected a cancer) but he pulled through so yes we got bonus time. But it still hurts

His name is Roger 💗 and he is the bestest old boi 😭

[u/Queasy_Designer9169]

If it should be that I grow frail and weak
And pain should keep me from my sleep,
Then will you do what must be done,
For this — the last battle — can’t be won.

You will be sad I understand,
But don’t let grief then stay your hand,
For on this day, more than the rest,
Your love and friendship must stand the test.

We have had so many happy years,
You wouldn’t want me to suffer so.
When the time comes, please, let me go.
Take me to where to my needs they’ll tend.

Only, stay with me till the end
And hold me firm and speak to me
Until my eyes no longer see.

I know in time you will agree
It is a kindness you do to me.
Although my tail its last has waved,
From pain and suffering I have been saved.

Don’t grieve that it must be you
Who has to decide this thing to do;
We’ve been so close — we two — these years,
Don’t let your heart hold any tears.

~Unknown

[u/Jetsetter_Princess → u/Queasy_Designer9169]

This always makes me ugly cry; but it's our one job aside from loving them as much as we can.