problems with jewish identity

[u/DeadRat__]

i was not raised as a jew. my great-grandmother was jewish, but she was forced to convert to catholicism in order to marry my great-grandfather. after discovering this, i began to study judaism and felt extremely comfortable and happy with the religion, and began to contact my local synagogue for conversion. problem is: i didn't like the people that ran the local synagogue. i didn't felt welcomed for who i am and what i belive, they are staunch zionists.

there is no other synagogue in the city (i live in a small state capital in brazil).

i don't know what to do. I wasn't raised jewish, but fell in love with the religion and began to study the Halakah and observe the mitzvot.

i don't like to call myself a jew because i never did my formal conversion, but i don't feel like anything else.

what am i?

[u/nah-chill]

you should look into Judaism Unbound. they are pretty woke and hippie-y mostly in ways I find cool. they have an online conversion program and are open to everyone. one of the rabbis is on the board of jvp even. honestly if they encountered someone who really pushed their boundaries they'd probably be grateful for the project

[u/DeadRat__ → u/nah-chill]

thank you so much!