problems with jewish identity

[u/DeadRat__]

i was not raised as a jew. my great-grandmother was jewish, but she was forced to convert to catholicism in order to marry my great-grandfather. after discovering this, i began to study judaism and felt extremely comfortable and happy with the religion, and began to contact my local synagogue for conversion. problem is: i didn't like the people that ran the local synagogue. i didn't felt welcomed for who i am and what i belive, they are staunch zionists.

there is no other synagogue in the city (i live in a small state capital in brazil).

i don't know what to do. I wasn't raised jewish, but fell in love with the religion and began to study the Halakah and observe the mitzvot.

i don't like to call myself a jew because i never did my formal conversion, but i don't feel like anything else.

what am i?

[u/GB819]

There is something called a Noahide. A Noahide abides by the Torah and Jewish laws but is still a Gentile.

[u/growing-gold → u/GB819]

Isn’t Noahidism explicitly tied to Zionism?

[u/specialistsets → u/growing-gold]

The concept of gentiles observing the Seven Noahide Laws is ancient. Maimonides urged Jews to encourage gentiles to observe them. Chabad is a big proponent. There are also a subset of Religious Zionists who strongly advocate for it because they believe it will bring the Messiah sooner.

[u/GB819 → u/growing-gold]

Maybe it is. If it is, I gave bad advice. Then I retract it.