problems with jewish identity

[u/DeadRat__]

i was not raised as a jew. my great-grandmother was jewish, but she was forced to convert to catholicism in order to marry my great-grandfather. after discovering this, i began to study judaism and felt extremely comfortable and happy with the religion, and began to contact my local synagogue for conversion. problem is: i didn't like the people that ran the local synagogue. i didn't felt welcomed for who i am and what i belive, they are staunch zionists.

there is no other synagogue in the city (i live in a small state capital in brazil).

i don't know what to do. I wasn't raised jewish, but fell in love with the religion and began to study the Halakah and observe the mitzvot.

i don't like to call myself a jew because i never did my formal conversion, but i don't feel like anything else.

what am i?

[u/richards1052]

In this day and age, I'm certain some rabbis would do a virtual conversion process. There is a Conservative rabbinical seminary in Buenos Aires. I would Contact them and ask if this is a possibility. If that doesn't work, I would contact Rabbi Matalon at Kehillat Jesherun in NYC. He trained at that seminary and might be able to help

As I understand, the conversion process involves reading, study and conversations between yourself and the 3 rabbis who would preside over your conversion process. I don't believe it's as onerous as a prior commenter said. But it does require extensive study and commitment.

[u/DeadRat__ → u/richards1052]

thank you SO MUCH my friend!

[u/acacia_tree → u/DeadRat__]

It’s Rabbi Roly Matalon at B’nai Jeshurun. He’s from Argentina

[u/richards1052 → u/acacia_tree]

Yes, that was a typo on my part. I knew his last name, but left out the last letter.

[u/richards1052 → u/DeadRat__]

More more than welcome.