Need to vent/seeking support

[u/jewraffe5]

Flaired as opinion but lmk if I need to delete/change flair...sorry I'm new here.

Basically just need to vent - it feels impossible to discuss the situation in Israel/Palestine with my parents and I feel like it's made our already somewhat shallow relationship even more so...

Backstory is I'm Ashkenazi and was raised modern Orthodox and went to private Jewish schools from pre-K until 12th grade. In case that doesn't make it obvious, the Pro Israel indoctrination was STRONG. It's only been in more recent years, and frankly this current "war" (is it a war when it's this one sided? I still have a hard time using the word genocide bc of Holocaust associations but...) has broken me in terms of Israel and honestly pushed me away from the thin shred of Judaism I've been holding on to.

I feel disconnected from my family who is still so blindly pro-Israel, thinking this war is justified in anyway and never mentioning the thousands of Palestinians brutally murdered or any other wrongdoing Israel and the IDF do. It does not feel worth the stress of engaging with my parents about this topic and then I feel guilty for having the privilege of avoiding discussing this "issue" while real lives are being TAKEN by a country doing it supposedly "for my sake".

I'll cut this off here before it gets longer, but are other folks dealing with this with family members? It sucks.

[u/Welcomefriend2023]

I grew up in a time and a place (1950s/1960s) when the only Orthodox Jews who were pro zionist were what we called "non observant Orthodox", or nominally Orthodox ( iow Jews who attended an Orthodox shul etc bc there wasn't anything else).