i need to change but need help

[u/Affectionate-Pass497]

i turned 18 a few months ago and I have realized I have not matured at all. ive never worked a job, my parents cook my meals everyday, im failing my a levels because of my bad mh. I’ve been really suicidal too. im straight up a bum. my a level exams are in 6 months and im gonna study very hard for them but i feel like I’m so behind. I still live with my parents and have no clue about finances and adult life, I feel like I’m still a kid. everyone’s working and being adults whereas I’m just behind. it makes me feel so inadequate because I am. i never really wanted to go to university either but it’s not like I can anyway because of my grades.

im a bum and I just want to change, any tips? please don’t ridicule me