r/Assistance • u/DrFredz • Mar 26 '23
EMOTIONAL SUPPORT I am so sad
I am just so sad. In short, I saved up all my life and sacrificed everything I could until the age of 38 and opened a restaurant right before COVID hit. Long story short, restaurant is sold at a major loss, life savings gone and I just put up my family home for sale to pay off my debts, will be renting because my credit is shot. Will have to take my autistic son out of his private school and put him in a crappy public school. Marriage took a major hit and I’m not sure if we’ll come out of it ok. I’m out of a job and feel like I can’t work anymore, yet I cannot afford even a week without any income.
I’ve been crying all day and I can’t stop. I’m so sad my heart physically aches. I can’t sleep and cannot hold back my tears and sadness. I know everyone will say stuff like “stay strong” and “it’ll get better” or “there are others that have it worse”, but for me, since the age of 16, I have dedicated every second of every day, made so many sacrifices and suffered so much to get somewhere where I could lead a good life and leave something good for my kids when I’m gone, only to end up with such an outcome. I am destroyed and hurting so much.
I lost hope. I was always positive even when times were hard. I always believed hard work and sacrifices will eventually pay off. I always believed that if I do good I will eventually reap the benefits. I have always tried to be kind, generous, helpful and compassionate with everyone I encountered, no matter who they were. I was religious and believed I will be rewarded for my efforts. I was wrong all along and it really really really hurts to hit the wall and find out all of it was in vain.
I’m not sure what I’m looking for by posting this but I hope to feel even a little better after putting it out there. Thanks for reading me and good luck to everyone out there, life is unfair and cruel.
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u/[deleted] Mar 26 '23
We all live in a sad world right now and it shows little sign of being better anytime soon. You seem to have the right mindset, you know that others may have it worse and you know you have to keep it going for the family. You may be in a low point in life right now but I can tell you have the right attitude to get through tough times and you have gotten through them before. I myself have been homeless to working a good paying job and a decent place to live back to almost homeless again now with zero help and now no friends to help, been scraping from instacart to either be able to put gas in car or eat something for the day. Even made some posts on here trying to "beg" for a full tank of gas so I can just make enough to stock up on things and not have this day to day rat race thats impossible to win.
You my friend are going to get through this. Why? Because I can tell you are not the type to give up and you have a family you care about and that alone will keep your nose to the grindstone. Take it day by day and just push through, something will give and life will improve. After all if you give up, everything just stops and then gets much worse. Get up everyday and do what you gotta do. For your kids, for you and to prove anyone doubting you right now that they were wrong.
Everyday is a chance that things could get better so keep living through the days no matter what happens. And best wishes and luck to you!