this is a long one, its more of a rant but the rant i think lends context to my questions.
this is not a shitpost, and im asking it as a genuine, good faith question....
im also canadian just to clarify
what do you do when you where told your whole life that democratic socialism = socialism and that socialism is bad and actually harms people and makes their quality of life worse...yet when you become an adult, you realize that a lot of the ideas behind democratic socialism makes more sense than whatever dystopian semi-capitalist oligarcal helllhole we currently have?
i look at my own experience, i have ADHD but i was unaware of that until i was diagnosed as an adult, so i had basically no support as a child and teen, which lead me to struggle in and hate school and ultimately drop out of highschool and only getting a GED....
ive spent my adult life (damn near 10 years) working in construction, labourer, machinist, forklift operator, and welding..... but ive never made a lot of money and ive always been making a few dollars over min wage, but living on my own and paying all of my bills.
ive experienced long bouts of unemployment due to ADHD but also mental health and substance use, which would have certainly led to eviction and homelessness had i not had EI there to back me up....
my partner's elderly parents have been on welfare due to old age and workplace injuries, that prevented them from being homeless.
recently a family member has passed away, and i saw how much the funeral bills would have cost us..... and due to circumstances, me and my partner would have been on the hook to pay for it, it would have bankrupted us and put us into debt, completely wiping out all the money we have saved for a down payment and emergency fund. yet there where programs and assistance available to help that knocked the costs down to something i could afford....
and recently family members have gotten sick and where hospitalized, yet they technically paid $0 for their hospital stays.
the kicker here is that i have almost always identified as a libertarian, because i have always despised the government in its current form, and wished for a smaller, limited government that didnt fritter away tax dollars to bomb poor people in 3rd world countries over oil, and ive always believed in personal freedoms, things like freedom of speech and gun rights, freedom of association, gay marriage, etc
i always see libertarians screeching about taxes and shit....and how we ought to privatize absolutely everything..... and ive never really identified with that very much because if there was anything i was more wary of than the government, it was mega corps and big business.
i look at the healthcare system in the US, and as shitty as aspects of our "marxist" healthcare system is, i would not want to be in the US and have health issues...
im coming to the conclusion that many concepts that are considered part of the "libertarian agenda" if you will, are just ideals that will only work for rich people....and that it doesnt account for the little people, or people who are elderly or disabled.....
ive been lurking here in this subreddit for a while now and i see a lot of points and arguements that make sense to me, more sense that a lot of libertarian arguments and points?
so where do i go from here? what do i do next?
i listen to a lot of youtube while i play videogames and i listen to a wide range of polticial youtube channels, mostly libertarian leaning but in the past year ive been trying to be more objective and trying to break out of my echo chamber and expose myself to a wider palette of ideas and theories.
i keep finding myself listening to a lot of leeja miller, which a decent amount of her content and the concepts and ideas discussed resonate with me.....
the federal election season is coming up next year, ive always voted CPC federally, and UCP provincially, ive looked more at the NDP in recent months, but i have a ton of hesitation about that, as they seem to be too aligned with the liberals, who have basically run a train on this country and there are a lot of things that i disagree with the NDP on (like firearms)
thanks for reading