r/Blind • u/heavensdumptruck • 4d ago
I cringe at the thought of how it must have been for disabled people in the past who were often condemned to institutions. Howeverm I sometimes think being this kind of alone is worse.
I have no fam, friends, etcetera. For various reasons, I've always felt like I owed some one something. I seldom had that feeling or sense of being part of a community or communal situation where I had a place and a right to be there. Or the option of reliable company if I wanted or needed it. Sometimes, i feel trapped here in my tiny apartment. I am in the so-called Regular community but not really a part of it. It just makes me think that people in institutions must have, in ways, been more family to each other than they were to their relatives outside. It reminds me of part of an excellent book called TRAIN GO SORRY which details the lives of kids at a residential school for the deaf. When this one group faced the daunting task of leaving the world they trusted and understood so well to go Home for the school's winter break, it was heart-wrenching. When these kids had each other, what they Didn't have mattered less. I just crave that sense of wholesale acceptance in at least one facet of my life. Anyone else? How do you cope?