Never

[u/JD8269]

I'm like, I'm never going to get sober, I keep doing this over and over, tryin to recover, but stuck in the same pit, I just dont give a shit, and want to quit, not only drugs but the way I live, and give up and leave it all behind, after I just did a line, and in my mind, I find, everytime, that I'm never going to learn, damn my nostril burns, as the world turns, on its own terms, I'm concerned, about waking up another day, what else to say? Another bill to pay, and buried in debt, until death, nothing's left, and my best, plan of action, as a distraction, I sack em, for your satisfaction, and just happen, to be on deck, so smoke that wet, to your neck, but better check, your vital signs, there might be fetty in that line, and I'm getting richer as you sniff that mixture, that takes you out the picture, and means nothing to me, you see, ain't nothing free, you be, paying for everything in the end, but we pretend, and then, suffer the consequences and repercussions, there's no discussion, it could be your destruction, don't care much then, son it's fun in the moment, so hell own it, yea take another hit, snort another line, slam more in your vein, to alleviate the pain, but the highs just not the same, that's lame, fuck it lets do more and more, and even get cross faded, damn I'm wasted, and hated, by my friends and family, my girl just can't stand me, and it lands me, straight in the clink, and in my cell I think, that I'm on the brink, of erupting cuz I'm fucking, about to lose my shit, I should have quit, how bad can this get? I feel sick, sitting in this cell, in my own created hell.

[u/Big-Dentist-5652]

I lost trust in myself when I was drinking.I lost any sort of self belief and loathed every particle of my being waking up the next day with a raging hangover and shame about whom I had called the night before, who I had insulted or how I had embarrassed myself.I lost all my friends, my marriage and by some sort of energy out there,I didn't get to homelesslessness or lose custody of my daughter.Someone was watching over me.I've been 25 years sober this January 2025. Reach out for help in any way you can-it's out there.Blessings.

[u/OwnLet4364]

Your honesty and raw emotion speak volumes, and it’s clear that you’re in a deep struggle, battling a cycle that feels unbreakable. Substance abuse often traps us in this vicious cycle where we turn to it to numb pain or escape, but it only deepens the hurt, leaving us feeling more stuck, lost, and hopeless. The weight of guilt, regret, and the brokenness you feel doesn’t have to be your future. There is hope, but sometimes the strength we need isn’t something we can muster on our own—it’s a strength greater than us, and that strength is God.

God sees you in this pit and loves you deeply, even in your darkest moments. He’s waiting for you to cry out to Him and invite Him to help. You don’t have to climb out alone—He can pull you out and give you a new life, free from the chains of addiction. Matthew 11:28-30 says, “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.” This is a promise that He will carry your burdens if you surrender them to Him.

In your hardest moments, remember 1 Corinthians 10:13: “No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.” There is always a way out, even when it feels impossible. Start by asking God for the strength to take one small step, like reaching out to someone who can help or removing yourself from the environments that feed the cycle.

Lastly, Isaiah 41:10 reminds us, “Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” God has not abandoned you, and He never will. He is ready to guide you toward healing and freedom if you let Him. Take one moment, one prayer, and one small step at a time, and trust that God will meet you in your pain and walk with you toward a better future. You’re not alone. Keep going.