Hey everybody, I have a stumble across this group accidentally it seems like the timing that happened couldn't have been more of a sign that I should at least check it out...
SOOO i'm about to turn 37 in a couple days. I'm father and son. I have read some of the posts I've come across and I can imagine some of the things you guys go through. My heart truly goes out to some of you. And I hope I'm not being disrespectful by posting my "problem" but it just seemed like the right place right time for it..
I've had acne through school, Nothing CRAZY, I'd say maybe slightly above you're average teenage add/adhd male who was very active ie sports playing outside etc... sometimes I would get these huge zips or maybe they were. I'm not even sure majority of the time I would get them like on my drawer line and once in a blue moon they would develop to the point where eventually it would "pop" after numerous days of squeezing/picking at them.. majority of the time I would notice them early and try my damnedest to pop it and would wind up just squeezing the hydration out of my skin leaving as well as extreme, hard squeezing/picking. Eventually, my skin developed, and it wasn't really an issue anymore....
LONG STORY SHORT: got mixed up with using... then it got to the point of IV usage.... and eventually I wound myself up in the hospital for 3 weeks straight because I got sepsis and ignored it until the pain was unbearable and unfortunately the infection had ran its path...
After this incident, it was a wake up completely stepped, using most things that I had a problem with full disclosure are still inject time to time recreationally....
Ever since being septic, my body does heal things the way it used to... so I would get abscesses time to time along with infections, random hematomas from the smallest injury... and obviously with these things I found myself in a familiar position of picking and squeezing..
Psychologically, I know I have an issue and I've been able to address it and admit it.... for some reason if there's something in my body, that is not supposed to be there 95% of the time I will squeeze or pick or pierce whatever protrusion has developed until it's either popped, gone or I literally cant do anyything else..
I've caught myself starting to do it and have literally said leave it alone. Don't fuck with it because I know what's gonna happen and I just cannot leave these things alone, just by knowing that they may not be "ready" to be popped, or even if picking squeezing whatever it is may lead to other serious issues... (lucky that hasn't been the case this far)
Recently, I started a new job at a papermill (I have approximately 15 years experience working with paper) so I've fit right in and caught on and am doing well.... but I'm starting to notice that around the time I started the job, my skin had been breaking out some and I'm hoping my body will just adapt....
But this last night/this morning l discovered what I believe to be pimples in my earlobes as well as a couple other places on my face, but they are not at the service and I have to kind of squeeze and feel around to feel where the lump(s) are... again despit my efforts here I am squeezing these "things" that shouldn't be on me excessively... I'LL THROW UP SOME PICTURES. NOTHING SERIOUS. THANKS FOR READING. ANY CONSTRUCTIVE FEEDBACK IS WELCOME.
PS SORRY FOR BEING SO LENGTHY SOOO HERE IS LITTLE SEBATION
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