That's it.

Someone that cares about me breathing other than my mom. Someone that worries about me through the week because of how much I hate my job. Someone that is happy because I'm happy.

My name's Courtney. I'm 38 years old. I love watching the NFL and anime. I don't own a console any more but I love comfort games like Animal Crossing and Harvest Moon. Arizona is my favorite state. I write stories inspired by all of those things.

But I have no one to share any of them with.

You don't have to come to my wedding (if I ever have the honor of being married to anyone). You don't have to save me from a burning building. And I'm not asking for any money.

As I work just to survive, I just want a friend.

My little guy finally went over the rainbow bridge this morning after being diagnosed with a brain tumor yesterday. He lost the ability to walk yesterday, and struggled to eat, potty and drink this morning. It was time to say goodbye, and he went in my arms. I already miss him more than life, and could use a hug. I don’t know how I’m going to get through this without his little soul.

I know how pathetic it may sound to ask for birthday wishes, but I could really use some support today.

Long story short, and please dont take this as a sob story, it's been the worst and hardest year of my life and I'm finally on the right path towards turning it around. I'm an alcoholic and opiate addict that managed to quit drinking and my PST addiction with the help of an amazing therapist.

After surviving a recent s*icide attempt I have an entire new outlook on life. I want to he here and I want to live a happy life and today is day one of my journey.

EDIT: Overwhelmed by the amount of support given here. This is an amazing community and all these comments mean so much to me. Thank you so much for making this a good day

I recently lost my job and had to apply for Social Assistance to get me through until I can find a new job. So as a single male, I qualify for $571 a month. That is supposed to cover my rent, bills, and food for a month. how does anyone live on this much? I'm feeling so defeated. I've worked all my life never had a period where I wasn't employed. They might not have ever been amazing jobs but they kept the bills paid and food in my belly. But now, just how? I guess come the morning I'm going to go through and see what all I can sell quick but this sucks.

Thank you for listening.

And Merry Christmas

Just me and my baby daughter so I don't really have anyone and I'm just looking for a bit of cheer on my birthday, It's been kinda lonely lately so it would be really nice.

It's my birthday today. Since losing my husband I don't do anything and don't really celebrate, I'm used to not getting anything and usually being forgotten. This whole time of year gets me down and I try to stay happy for the kids but it's hard. I hope everyone has a great holiday season and happy new year.

Please pray for my dad please. He’s in the ICU right now with COVID and pneumonia. He’s my best friend in the whole world and I need him home safe and healthy. :( that’s my dad. Please pray for his health and for his recovery. I’m begging anyone and everyone to please pray. I’m asking for this one request please. For prayers. All the prayers he can get.

I just put my cat of 18 years down. He couldn't walk. He would walk 2 or 3 steps and would fall over. He was on monthly pain shots (has been for over a year) and daily pain meds and he just kept getting worse in the last 3 days. I am worried I made the wrong choice. He also had a gallop rhythm in his heart and a heart murmur. He had kidney, pancreas and liver all showing signs of failure and he had a growth on his arm.

This is a lot wrong and I tried to do everything I could for him but in the last 2 days he did nothing but sleep. He's walk a few steps and either fall or lay down. It was really sad to watch. He peacefully passed and it was just like he went to sleep. This was less than 12 hours ago and I keep crying. I miss him. He was with me almost my entire adult life. I'm 41 and he was 18.

If anyone has any advice or could just tell me it will eventually be ok I would really appreciate it.

I'm sorry baby, I wish I could have done more for you. Mommy couldn't make it better and I feel like a failure.

Hello all, My daughters birthday is the 5th which is also election day of course, school is closed and I have to work unfortunately. Just started this job so taking off wasn't a choice :(. Anyways my baby was born at 25 weeks and she is going to be 12! Shes having a hard time with the fact she doesnt have many friends besides 1 and she lives 2 hours away now :( can you all join me in saying happy birthday to her? I just want her to see that people care and can be nice. We can't do much since I don't have much right now. Saturday I'm gonna take her to mcdonalds get her a big mac(her favorite) and just be together. I appreciate anyone who reads or replys or both. Thank you 😊

I have been fighting my emotions but I can't control it anymore. Life has been cruel to me. I have been working hard and was rewarded with the most horrible gift. I just want someone to encourage me to ease me up I'm so desperate. I have been going on and off on my emotional stability and I'm afraid of losing my consciousness permanently. I have a cancer and my condition is getting worse. I just don't know what I should do. Fear is making me sleep less and overthink more that I have to endure future unbearable pain.

I just don't know how am I supposed to live my life like this and why did this happen to me. I never smoked nor drink a sip of alcohol. I was doing nothing sort of bad habit or taking any unhealthy diets. WHY ME???

That’s it. I honestly just need someone to talk to. I just am tired and feel broken. That’s really all. If anyone doesn’t mind listening to a vent I would appreciate it so much!

Hi. Extremely long story short, I live in a motel room with a narcissistic mom and for far too many reasons, can't break out of the arrangement. I have a full-time job that makes me feel as though my soul is being sucked through a straw eight hours a day, five days a week. And 85% of my paycheck goes toward paying for our room, so there's not much Christmas magic going on. Not just in regards to gifts, but there's a few pieces of decor and that's it. No friends or family members to celebrate Christmas with. Nothing that feels like home. Just a job I hate and an emotionally abusive mom that incessantly loves talking about herself.

Would you mind please wishing me Merry Christmas?

I am just so sad. In short, I saved up all my life and sacrificed everything I could until the age of 38 and opened a restaurant right before COVID hit. Long story short, restaurant is sold at a major loss, life savings gone and I just put up my family home for sale to pay off my debts, will be renting because my credit is shot. Will have to take my autistic son out of his private school and put him in a crappy public school. Marriage took a major hit and I’m not sure if we’ll come out of it ok. I’m out of a job and feel like I can’t work anymore, yet I cannot afford even a week without any income.

I’ve been crying all day and I can’t stop. I’m so sad my heart physically aches. I can’t sleep and cannot hold back my tears and sadness. I know everyone will say stuff like “stay strong” and “it’ll get better” or “there are others that have it worse”, but for me, since the age of 16, I have dedicated every second of every day, made so many sacrifices and suffered so much to get somewhere where I could lead a good life and leave something good for my kids when I’m gone, only to end up with such an outcome. I am destroyed and hurting so much.

I lost hope. I was always positive even when times were hard. I always believed hard work and sacrifices will eventually pay off. I always believed that if I do good I will eventually reap the benefits. I have always tried to be kind, generous, helpful and compassionate with everyone I encountered, no matter who they were. I was religious and believed I will be rewarded for my efforts. I was wrong all along and it really really really hurts to hit the wall and find out all of it was in vain.

I’m not sure what I’m looking for by posting this but I hope to feel even a little better after putting it out there. Thanks for reading me and good luck to everyone out there, life is unfair and cruel.

So, my house was robbed, like 100k worth of appliances, furniture, electronics, personal and sentimental affects etc. We are getting custody of my husband's oldest son hopefully in December if all goes well with our next dcfs court date, and I have a 4 month old boy. My husband was laid off from his job working for the city in September....on his bday actually. We live in a village, population is about 425 here so jobs in town are few and far between. He and I have been doing our best to survive, refurbish our house, and really just stay positive about life. I applied for a full time job with benefits and good pay today so if yall could just take a minute out of your day to help me manifest this job, I would appreciate it. We desperately need a change for the better here in our house. Taxes are overdue and we still don't have a washer and dryer. Plus Christmas and birthdays are approaching so this job would help us tremendously to catch up. Thanks guys, I appreciate you all taking the time to read this and allowing me to vent/post. 💙

THANK YOUUU ALL MUCH LOVE!!!

guys, I’m 31 years old today, and it’s my first birthday as a Mama. I’m working from home alone with my kiddo while my fiancé is at work. I was hoping to get some good vibes sent my way! I hope you all have a wonderful day!

I found my husband outside, having a seizure. He had seizures off and on for 25 minutes before the ambulance got there. He has never had a seizure before. He’s 31 and healthy. I screamed for help until I was able to get ahold of 911. It seemed like an eternity.

We are at the ER now. He’s unresponsive and intubated. They are admitting him to the neuro ICU and he is going in for brain surgery soon. We have a 2 year old son. I feel so lost and alone. He is my person. He’s the one that gets me through tough times. I don’t know what I’m doing.

Please send any prayers, good thoughts, healing wishes my way. I’ll take anything positive I can get. Thank you.

Edit: Thank you so much everyone for the good thoughts and prayers. I am so grateful for each and every one of them. We are currently in the Neuro ICU and he is in a medically induced coma. They found a brain mass of some sort on the CT and he will be going for an MRI in the morning. Hopefully we have answers soon.

UPDATE: hello everyone. I cannot thank you all enough for the prayers and well wishes. Every single comment has helped me a lot and made me feel less alone. Sorry it took longer for an update. They determined it is a brain tumor, I don’t know the full extent or grade yet. We are waiting to speak with the neurosurgeon team to learn more and come up with a treatment plan. My husband is off of the ventilator and is able to talk to me now, which is a HUGE relief. Our son isn’t allowed to see him yet because he’s still in the surgical ICU. It still feels overwhelming, but at least we are getting answers and hoping for the best possible outcome.

Thank you so much to each and everyone of you that has reached out to me and took time out of your day to think of my family.

It’s my birthday today and my own family and partner have forgotten to even bother. All I’m asking is for some sort of happy birthday. Today’s been mentally draining and some uplifting spirits is all I really need. Hope everyone else is having a wonderful day. :)

Our hearts are breaking, this year has been tough for us all. I just got out of the hospital for emergency surgery that probably saved my life, the day after I had my wound VAC taken off we got the phone call no parents or grandparents want to receive right before Christmas. Our 19 year old grandson was in a terrible accident in NH, being so far away and having to wait for news everyday is terrible 😔 Well, he's had no brain activity whatsoever since it happened and has been in a coma since.. We still have no idea how it happened and we've been praying he'll wake up. We got the call last night saying they are giving him a day or two and then it's time to start thinking about pulling the plug 💔 Talk about heartbreaking, his poor mom has to hear this from the nurse's talking in the hallway outside his room.. Why it hurts so bad, my husband and I had to raise him and his little brother for 4 years while Mom went to jail, then rehab and they were like my children for those 4 years.. This is so painful to deal with the week before Christmas, he was on his way to his last day of college before Xmas break and ended up with a broken pelvis in 4 places, a damaged liver and spleen. Severe brain bleeding that's preventing them from doing anything at all, besides placing stints because his arteries were closing. My husband is packing up to head to NH to say his goodbyes. This is not a trip we've planned for whatsoever. His family has come together and helped with some gas money so he can get there before they do anything. I unfortunately have to stay home because of our pup.. I just wanted to say hug your kid's and grandkids tightly. You just never know what or when something like this will happen 💔 from a heartbroken grandmother ❣️

Update: Since my husband got to the hospital there's been some changes! They've been able to do some testing, he does have a blood clot in his lung, but they were able to do the procedure to place some mesh around it to keep it from traveling to his heart! They removed his breathing tube yesterday just to see if he'd breath on his own and he did for close to a minute! He also bit the tube in his mouth twice while my husband was there with his daughter 🙏🏻 Please keep praying, this might be a Christmas miracle!

I hope this message finds you surrounded by love, laughter, and all the joy that Easter brings. As for me, well, I find myself here, typing away, reflecting on the bittersweet reality of today.

You see, this Easter, I find myself alone. Not by choice, mind you, but because my family decided that spending the day with a cancer patient might just dampen the festive spirit a little too much. And who can blame them, right? Easter is supposed to be a time of merriment, of egg hunts and chocolate bunnies, not a time for somber thoughts and worried glances.

So, as I sit here, contemplating the emptiness that echoes through the halls of my home, I can't help but feel a twinge of sadness. But then, amidst the solitude, a realization dawns upon me.

Easter isn't about the grand gatherings or the lavish feasts. It's not about the flashy decorations or the perfectly orchestrated egg hunts. No, Easter is about something much deeper, much more profound.

It's about hope. It's about resilience. It's about the unwavering belief that even in the darkest of times, light will find its way in.

So, to all of you out there who, like me, find yourselves spending this Easter alone, I want you to know that you are not forgotten. You are not overlooked. You are not any less deserving of celebration.

In fact, you are what makes this day special. Your strength, your courage, your sheer determination in the face of adversity – that's what Easter is truly about.

So, as you navigate through this day, know that you are not alone. You are surrounded by a community of warriors, each fighting their own battles, yet united in spirit and solidarity.

And remember, dear friend, that you are loved. You are cherished. You are worthy of all the joy and happiness that this world has to offer.

So, here's to you – the unsung heroes of Easter. May your day be filled with warmth, with peace, and with the knowledge that you are enough, just as you are.

Happy Easter, my friends. You are what makes this day special. Celebrate yourself, for you are truly remarkable.

All my love and solidarity

How can I do this. I need encouragement and reminders on why it’s so important to be with him. Please.

EDIT: I want to thank you all for your kind words of encouragement and support. I’ve read every reply and will continue to read any more. I am crying while petting him. I just made him a hamburger. Tomorrow we will get that puppacchino and he will rest. My heart is already broken by the mere thoughts of it but I know what I have to do. I sincerely appreciate your kindness and compassion. We are SO lucky to have our pets in our lives. They basically live to love and be loved. I am grateful.

I recently moved into my own place, and today I’ve just felt like I’ve been in a state of anxiety mixed with being sad all day. I tried to cry but I couldn’t and it feels even heavier. My head just hit the pillow tonight and I just wish I could have one of those long hugs that makes everything go away for a little while. I know it will pass, I know. I just can’t help but feel heavy ever since taking on all this responsibility; cooking, chores, finances, working full-time and providing for myself, all these things. I’m happy but I’m so burned out by the stress of it all, even though I want my own spot. But I just feel overwhelmed. I want to cry again. But I can’t.

I'm on an anniversary vacation with my partner and so far it has been awful. First, what is usually a day drive to me for my partner ended up being 17 hours, then our place we booked ended up being pretty dirty. The shower has mold, and the comforter is stained and looks like someone vomited on it. It's already midnight, and we can't afford to leave and find another last minute place to stay. I am also on my period, which I haven't gotten in over 14 months (long story) and it is debilitating. We were supposed to go see Christmas lights in the park tomorrow and I don't think I'll even make it sitting in the car to get there.

I feel horrible, I wanted this to be a nice vacation for us and it is turning into one of the worst vacations so far. I am trying to hold it together so my partner doesn't feel bad as well (I'm certain they feel bad on account of staying in a dirty place, but I mean feeling bad because I'm having a bad time). On previous vacations I've definitely smiled through the obstacles (there aren’t usually this many) but this is difficult. If I could I think I would've cancelled this all together.

I feel stupid for trying to plan all of this, and I'm honestly just waiting for something worse to happen now to top it all off. I reported the issues with the place we're staying at, but unfortunately our gamble on trying to save money means we are dealing with subpar customer service too. If anyone has any advice, stories of how they survived horrible vacations with their partner, or any kind words really, I'd appreciate it. I feel like a failure and just awful in general.

I’m 25. My dad had a brain bleed or a stroke or both (I don’t know if those are the same thing), was found by his girlfriend unresponsive. He’s intubated, his kidneys are failing, doctors said something about DKA, even after weaning sedation he’s not responsive. He’s not doing good and I’m not medical, but my mom is and when I told her what’s up she just told me to prepare myself because my dad is probably going to die. He’s having neurological fevers, body temp was stuck at 104 degrees and wouldn’t come down at all for a day and a half, they got him cooled down with ice packs. But his temp keeps spiking. He’s on dialysis. He’s not good.

I really want to hold out hope that he might get better, my mom is a pessimist. I don’t know what to do with myself because I don’t want to latch on to false hope but here I am doing it anyway. I don’t know what to do and I feel like I can’t get a break from tragedy- I don’t know what to do.

I think this is safe to say these last two years have been the worst two years of my life.

I don’t know what I’m looking for with this post. I’ve been crying for hours and my head hurts. I guess I just want to know I’m not crazy. Some sort of validation that these things happens and I’m not alone. Some sort of understanding. I’m never good on this day. I don’t know if I ever will be.

Happy birthday, Ezra. Mommy loves you. I miss you, son.

It’s my son’s 12th birthday today and he just informed me that his biological babysitter decided it was more important to go out with friends and leave my son alone rather than celebrate with him. I’d like to show him that people do care and love him. I have less than a month before I will have full custody and things like this make me so mad. Especially when he was told that he couldn’t have a birthday party because it was too expensive.

For context: I live 6 hours away and am driving to stay with him for the next three days and sleep in my car because I cannot believe this father would do this.